Living Life as Jayden's Mommy….

You know you always hear this but I really think it is the truth.

The guidance counselor shared with me that women just like to talk and get things off of their chest. We do not want suggestions on how to fix the problems/ issues because many of us are natural problem solvers (yes, I am tooting my own horn here because I am a problem solver and have been since high school!). Men on the other hand have problems and by the time they actually do share it many times it has escalated to the point that they no longer know what to do and just need suggestions or to hand it over.

I had a friend tell me the reason that good girls dated “bad” boys was because women have a “save a man/ save the world” mentality. I did not believe him for the longest but now I do. I have that mentality. Maybe it comes from being a teacher. I feel that everyone comes across my path for one reason or the other and on my part I would love to impart knowledge that will help them out sometime in their lives!

I of course have shared my newly found information with everyone. Although so many people are not as impressed.

I showed my students the “shift happens” slide show and many of them appreciated it and thought it was quite interesting and thought provoking.

I also made my students write position statements on the election. They had to choose one of the major presidential candidates. Most of them chose McCain. That did not surprise me although I think they read the views wrong because many of them are for govt supporting everything and that lines up more with Dem. than Rep. I think. But honestly as the days go by and we see more and more corruption of the system- I totally understand why people want to hold each other accountable. Ugh!

Ok anyways… I have encouraged some close friends to read my blog. Although my only faithful subscriber that I know of is smidgensquared although my bestie out of the country did comment once. I am sooo bad at tangents- can you imagine class discussions with a hyper group- tangent city- lol. Funny… ok my DC friend said that she has been reading at work. She paused and I just knew what she was going to write next- you bet- we simultaneously wrote it was funny. But when we used to hang out we were always making each other laugh… stupidity and all… it was just hilarious the stuff we did and said! Sometimes I miss those days and soooooo many other days I am glad those days of stupidity and caring about the insignificant things of life… are OVER!

OK this blog is longer than expected there was so much more to say… I did show School House Rock to my 11th and 12th graders- most of it was a review of what we have done and some new concepts were also taught so that is good.  I ate 5 slices of pizza for supper. I still can’t believe it but I am sooo proud because people make fun of me bring underweight and my hubby is convinced that if I gain 15 pounds I will be fine. It makes you wonder if he questions my “fineness” now…. ha ha- nope he really does not (yes, I have my vain moments too!)

Nevertheless, I am keeping up with the Wii and I get my Mom on there at least a couple of times a week. She gets hooked on the games and now that I have figured out how to get the high scores it is more fun because it is a newer challenge. That yoga stuff wears me out… especially the pose I had last night that you reach towards the floor and then you have to reach up with your other hand- I was literally about to cry it hurt so bad… but I am not flexible. Supposedly my balance is getting better though. Ok if you have a Wii and no wii fit- I am telling you hands down soooo worth every penny I paid and then some. No more gym fees or working out behind sweaty people or anything. I can do it all at the house! What would I do without convenience? Ok as I misspell words and get sleepy again… I am going to go now…

If anyone is reading this please comment! I ramble and you are welcome to hide your identity to everyone but myspace is no longer my thrill- blogging is. Yes, I go through phases… I am sure this too will pass after all. 

Yesterday I officially started my 6th year of teaching. Although many students, teachers, administrators, staff, and even parents were excited- I was not. It was hard to leave my hubby and return to my small town and my old job. I really thought I would be living a new life by now- NOT IN TRANSITION. My friend that wanted the job in London got her job. This was fantastic news that she received after she stopped worrying about it and quoting scriptures to me. My other friend who was a teacher is still looking but I feel that she is going to find something even better than teaching or she will be moved to a new area where the opportunities will be overflowing.

Back to me… yes I am still waiting on the position at the university. I was offered an interview at another university but the pay decrease would be just too significant and my hubby said no it was not worth it so… I am commuting. I miss him, my wii, and my new wii fit. It is just so unfair that I have a new home and have to pay bills there and buy groceries and I only get to enjoy it every other week. Gas is killing us but I can’t make that drive every week because it is just too much so on his days off every other week, he will bring the wii, the games, and his instruments, and his computer to chill here while I go to work.

I know God is coming through. My hubby dreamed that I got a call or I was told I would be called on  Tuesday. We still believe. I heard about “prayer notes” to the Lord so I am going to do those too. I have let go but just want him to provide me with something there and if that means a pay cut then I want him to lead me that way. The job I did interview for finally closed and they are going to start interviews for the lower paying jobs in the upcoming weeks I hope.

Sigh… okay well I need to get ready for day 2. I am not stressed, classes are small, and it could be much worse. I am thankful for my job and the fact that we are not having money problems. The distance is a major change for me. I got very used to being with hubby daily. Unfortunately that has disappeared… ugh. Okay enough sobbing for one night.

I am not ashamed to say that God is wonderful. My brilliant husband shared with me that sometimes the issues that we must overcome are not necessarily about us. I am not getting the position in the town that I want yet, one might think because I need to learn patience. However it might be to show another Christian or even nonbeliever that he can do it and will do it. Even when the chips are down, people’s prayers will be heard and answered. Sometimes when things happen to you, especially the good stuff, it is because of others not necessarily you.

Well I prayed last night and told the Lord all the details. Of course they included that I do not LOVE to drive, I need to live with my husband. I really dislike driving. I like being at my own house with my own stuff. I want a new direction in life and feel that it is at the college level since I have managed to get an interview there. I am not trying to sound ungrateful but I like having a list of things to do in a week’s time and getting them done and not taking work home or worried about testing results. I got a phone call at work. YIKES!!!! But, I missed it so I returned it and the pay was low like the other position I applied for before summer. It must be average pay or something… lol… Anyways, it turns out that I am not going to be able to interview Monday like I thought. So now human resources will contact me to let me know if they are going to hold the position open until Friday. But, they have not yet interviewed for the supervisory position and that would look EXCELLENT on a re’sume’! But… yes I am still waiting on the big school to call. My application is still “forwarded to the hiring department” and that means that I am still in the running. My prayer is that they interview and hire sooner than later so that I can begin and still get paid. But hey- this is why I trust in God- so that I don’t have to worry about this kind of stuff. He will provide for all of my needs. He knows them better than I and I trust him for that.

So now that I have poured my heart out, I am going to continue to wait and pray. I do have the ere of expectancy. I expect a job that I love AND a wonderful paycheck that will allow for necessities and wants. I do not want to do a bunch of work at a current job that is going to be trashed though either! Man, I am so going to like my checks at my old job… and my car is going to be paid off! Now, instead of having extra money, I will break even. But all is well as of now. I am here with hubby til Monday so perhaps things will be all worked out in the next week or so. That is my prayer anyway.