Living Life as Jayden's Mommy….

So Saturday I cried. I guess it was for a whole 10 minutes after I told myself I would not cry. But the pressure of life started weighing in… I am about to have a baby, I don’t have a secured position in Mobile, I don’t really have a babysitter here or there, and then there is the desire for a home there and that has still not come to pass and here lately I have not seen any great contenders. On top of all that, I feel like I am the only one that is truly concerned about it. Yes, I am trusting that the Lord will take care of it all but it still makes me antsy not to know what is in store. So, I cried… I stopped because my Mom came in to check on me. I think she knew I was crying but I stopped and tried to hide it anyway. She told me she is praying that I get the online virtual school job so that I can stay home with Jayden and I am sooo not against that. However, I put in an interest letter for Baldwin County Schools and a complete application with everything in my packet will be mailed tomorrow morning 1st thing. As soon as I get my official transcripts and reference letters then I will send it all off for Baldwin County.

I missed church today because I was feeling not so great. But in the meantime I did take the time to organize everything for my applications in AL. It made me feel accomplished! I also e-mailed a lady in Human Resources for Mobile County. Last but not least, I am done with all of my essays so I can post all of my final grades tomorrow minus my Psych class. I think I am going to show them a movie that one of my other classes watched just to give them some exposure.

OK Desperate Housewives finale is on… Grey’s Anatomy was fantastic so I am not going to miss this one either!

That is all, there isn’t anymore….

My hubby has composed a song called “It’s All Right”… it is actually a song that you can ride to, swing to, or just play and work. It is sooo awesome and relaxing. There are no words currently and if I could play it for you all I would but we hope that the single will be available by the end of the summer on itunes or something. It is soooo good. Smidgen and I have discussed ways to get it out and about so that was exciting too…

The week was rough. I have decided that even moreso now I want to move to AL. I was complacent in FL and then God decided to allow the devil to stir some things up. Let’s just say when people change positions, new people come in and things just change. As a teacher, schools are getting worse before they get better. I do feel I am called to teach. I acknowledge that… but who says that I can’t do it somewhere else? Or in a different environment? Hmmm… so I am praying specifically now for a new position at a high or middle school that is considered a “good school” where students and parents respect teachers. I would also like to have one class (one lesson plan), no more than 2 different classes and then maybe 6 periods a day or less. I am not big on block schedule but it will do. I would also like to have no duty. If I do have duty, I would like to have no lunch duty. I would also like to see $9,000 pay increase (or a little less) and cheap family monthly insurance (like $300) and good benefits. I would also like to love my coworkers and find some really good friends that I share a common bond with. A school and school system that understands teachers need supplies and support of the administration. I also hope that money issues are not too bad! Now talk about specifics- I think I have it covered! So there you have it my prayer…

I decided against Bless Your Heart this week simply because it is just too personal right now. I am tired of people thinking the world revolves around them… duh- my world revolves around me, lol… anyways… it was a good week spent with hubby so it all worked out in the end. I do have a few students who are soooo sweet and are truly at school to learn about life and get ready for the real world. I feel sorry for the kids who parents always jump up and in to handle small issues- it teaches the kids nothing in the long run. Accept your wrongdoings- do better and move on!

Ok so it is late and I will make this short and sweet. Today was a rough day for me at work. The summary- you try to be nice to students and parents and allow for extra activities and it is unappreciated… so now what? You stop being nice and just be mean!

Anyways, I talked to my sister and she was sweet. I know she didn’t really care because her situation is completely different but she listened and stood up for me as did all of my friends that I yacked to this afternoon, Mrs. T, my cousin and next door neighbor at work, and my smidgen and even hubby! Nevertheless she is having her own issues with her boss. I guess the boss just doesn’t like her. It is weird I don’t get why everyone loves my little sis but they do. And this lady is out to get her… so… when we talked she told me how excited she was about a new position she is applying for. She said that God has it set up. She wanted to leave her 1st job, got turned down for several positions in that organization and finally moved to this one- she hates it! She is now wanting to move to another one and it turns out her one friend at her current job has moved to this new place and God has set it up so that she is meeting all of these people in power over there. She is applying for a job and the guy that currently has it is from our hometown!!! How strange is that??? It is totally awesome because she has met her new bosses and some of her coworkers and is making sure they get that name/face recognition downpat. I told her that God was awesome.

He has plans for all of us. He planned for her to be in this new place and she wanted to move to her current job so bad that he allowed it… only to let her know that it was not for her. But he had to make her see and understand that it was not about her. Plus he had to let her get mad so she would apply elsewhere. Now he is teaching us both patience and gratefulness…. and appreciation… so… I am now praying for me and my little sister. I have no doubt she will get it though. It all comes to her… it just does!

Ok so that is my thing… God has it under control and in all of the mess there is purpose period.

I have a feeling that my life will be drastically different in a few years (3). I will have a baby, a nice home, may or may not have a job but I am almost positive that money will not be an issue and I will be in my Tahoe leading up to my Escalade (that was for hubby). It will be. Then I will be blogging about the goodness of God some more and thinking back to what had to be gone through to get there… Be encouraged all….

That is all, there isn’t anymore ———— from the Grinch that Stole Christmas

Creative Memories….. No… I am not reminiscing about a memory but I am so excited that I got a new scrapbook album! It is “plum.” I got it for my new little one sort of. If I have a girl then I will use it but if I have a boy then I am going to switch the “plum” with a “forest green” album I have. It was $25 total… normally way more… but it was on sale. I just needed a coverset. I am eager to scrapbook again and just get some pages started. It would be nice to scrap this summer but I think I might be busy with a new baby.

Today, I also started my application process for my AL teaching position. Alabama’s pay scale is quite good. It makes the FL panhandle look so sorry. I did figure out that even with a 5% contribution to retirement AND state income tax I should see about a $4k to $5k pay increase- sounds like a plan to me!

Today was low key. Kids worked on essays most of the day. Then in my Psych class we discussed classical conditioning and Pavlov and the dog. I tend to get real with my students because I think we can all learn from each other. But there was one study where they were trying to stop bedwetting in kids.There was an alarm hooked to sheets and when urine (it said a couple of drops) hit- the alarm would go off and then the child could wake up and go to the bathroom. I was a little stunned when I read it and I was going to tackle the great question BUT I was so glad a student beat me to it! Yes, a male student said “I don’t know about anyone else but when I start, it don’t stop!” The whole class cracked up laughing and I did too. But once we calmed down I told him that I felt he was absolutely right. THEN, he said that it really bugged him that when he did get up to pee he would go and then he would get back in bed. Of course 30 seconds later he said he still had the pee sensation and would go back to the bathroom to only let 4 drops come out. The class lost it! I put my head down and just as I was about to suggest he spend a little more time in there the 1st time, a different male student said “Just shake it!” I thought I was going to die and we all laughed some more. But I told him that was a good suggestion! I told the ladies that they did not have that part to shake and it was not necessary for them to shake but just spending an extra 5 – 10 seconds on the toilet to make sure it was all out would solve the issue. What can I say? It made the whole day worthwhile and I WISH we had recorded the discussion! Talk about “teachable moments”… lol…..

My back is bothering me more now AND I can tell I am getting bigger. I used to wear my size 4′s with pride. At 1st because they were too big, then because I was pregnant and a 4. Now they are starting to fit… you should have seen my facial expression! I was like “Oh no!” I am glad I got some maternity jeans. I guess I thought I would just be a 4 for a bit longer, oh well.

Another lady at our school finds out today what the sex of her baby is, the coach finds out Wednesday and I find out Thursday! It is sooo cool.

I am watching Oprah right now. I am loving the outline  to show your partner your erogenous zones and in what order. I am also floored that a woman would suggest sex and intimacy every night! Wow! What a thought? Scheduling time for your loved one is so important! Hence my need to be with hubby daily… ahhhhhh… I digress… For all the readers who are prayer warriors- please pray with me that I do get a position in AL and that I am where God wants me to be but with hubby and new baby!