Living Life as Jayden's Mommy….

I have sooo much grading to do… why did I wait until the end to do it? Well it was strategic, I had to cover so much info before I assigned it. I did get the career essays graded for Economics and now I have some Govt. essays to grade. It will be fairly easy to grade those if I can just sit long enough to actually do it! I also have tax papers to grade from last week but I only have 1 class remaining, thank the Lord!

I have to give finals this week and another dr. appt. this Friday. I will be checked for dilation this week since my doc should be back… not looking forward to that at all. Anyways, I figure if I hold out until May 28th then I can take off the rest of the year and still get paid if I had to. I am going to get a double check on my due date because I found some paperwork and it stated my expected due date according to measurements was June 7th which is a Sunday. He has been doing somersaltsin my belly for the last hour and I am not sure what is up with that but I thought he might be hungry so I ate… but that didn’t settle it… perhaps he is ready to hear my voice again.. who knows.. I think I am ready to meet him and stop being preggo for about 3 years until we can welcome him a little sister, Ashlynne. Yes, I am bound and determined to have a girl!

Well I had another shower at church today. It involved everyone dropping off gifts and cards, lol. I also found out that University of Phoenix is starting an online high school so… maybe I can look into getting into that. I heard a word at 7 a.m. well 6:30 I think, it was Creflo Dollar. Funny, he was talking about worry and how that was not of God. I recall the scripture marked in my Bible that talks about how we should not worry because God provides for the animals so of course he will provide for me. So I am continuing to pray and believe that I will get a position that is best for my family.

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Well this year I decided hubby would have to do without a Father’s day gift from me since next year Jayden and I will be getting him one. By the way I am not expecting a Mother’s Day gift either. So… I still needed to buy for my own father. So at 6:30 a.m.- yeah that is right bright and early Sunday morning, I woke up to go pee and I saw it! What did I see? Well on shopNBC.com they are having a 1 day special for a TOM TOM! I was soooo excited. Why? Well that is what my Dad asked for and my Mom was getting stressed about finding one. So why else? Well it was only $78.96!!!! Yes! Ok well $10 shipping and then that included a $30 rebate so in all I paid $118, but with the $30 rebate it is still under $90 and you can’t beat that. Plus, Mom, Sis, and I are going in together- which rocks! So… it has been a good day so far.

My shower was yesterday and we had lots of fun! I got lots of clothes and nice things. I am going to have to organize. I also figured out how to attach my car seat to the stroller- totally cool! I still have to get assistance on how to let the stroller down to get it in the car but I have a little time I think. I will get some shower pics posted soon.

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Oh and my list of things to still get consists of:

Bottle warmer, wipe warmer, diaper genie II, bath set, bath sponge (recommended by P.Bush at Our New Baby), and the swing and playard. We are holding out on the high chair!

Yes 6 weeks left and my little one will be here and life will never be the same. I will be totally responsible for another human for more than an hour or 2- scary thought. Anyway I do have updated pics but I got bigger. How do I know??? I can tell because my pregnancy belt (yeah for my back) does not fit right anymore. It still helps but at about 3 it has to come off because it gets on my nerves. I stand straight and my legs have immense pressure. I walk like it hurts because it DOES hurt. My doc is out having her own baby and the replacement well she is not very helpful or sympathetic- so glad she is not my regular doc! I will get the gall to add all that one day. I am back to napping and resting and now sweating- yes I know it is natural but it is gross! I hate it! I avoid it at all costs. So now when I nap I cover up and then wake up sweating under my neck usually. I told my Mom and she was like “you are pregnant!” I did not like that solution as it was not one. So… I have come up with a solution- I have no silk and cotton is hot… so nothing works… literally!

Ok so I was reading sevenchicks blog and looked at the lists people offered of things you need for a new baby. I have no pacifiers but I figure after my shower on Sat. Maybe even Sunday I will just take my money and go stock up at Wal-Mart on all that stuff. I have diapers and wipes to last for a minute (like a week or 2 so far) and thanks to a couple of high school friends, I went and got some preemies just in case my new lil’ one can’t wear the big ones. I got my stroller and car seat and plan to play with that tomorrow when I can get my hubby to drag it all out for me. I ordered my bassinet (thanks to Mom) and I got hubby to agree to get me the playard thing that costs $150. I am so matchy it is a shame. I told hubby that when we have our Ashlynne we would have to get new stuff because I like pink. What do you mean, what did he say (smidgen)? He did not say a word, he laughed and said ok whatever you want. That is soooo nice to hear sometimes by the way. He really is good to me even though I get on his nerves a lot. We have decided that it was nothing but the Lord that brought us together and is keeping us together, lol. I am driving him crazy these days!

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Conversation with guidance counselor (she gives good guidance to the adults and students!)

Me: My husband said he likes me like this… and then I frown

Guidance Counselor: Why?

Me: I don’t know.. we can’t do anything (you know be intimate and all) … and I can’t do anything for myself either and I am tired of it.

Guidance Counselor: Well, I don’t know about you but I am ready to have this over with

Me: Me too and I hate to break it to hubby but I am not going to be pregnant all the time!

Just reflecting I guess I should be happy to still be attractive while I am huge but I am not… I miss my old shape and being able to bend over and eat to live and sleep on my tummy! Hubby has decided he wants an orchestra (in children) and I told him that was cool- he can just pay for one. I have decided (unlike Mrs. T and Smidgen) that I am willing to go for 3 of my own and then we still have Katie. She wants a sister and I want her to have one. So hopefully after Jayden we will have our Ashlynne and then this Mommy will be done. But if not and we have another son, we might have a ______ (no name but it has to end in the “n” sound and have a “y” in it.) But we are leaving it in God’s hands.

OK so now so many people all over are in job limbo. It is a HORRIBLE feeling. I feel blessed to have a job where I am. The people I work with (minus a couple) are pretty fantastic! But I know that God is going to work out the situation for me and hubby to raise Jayden together.

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He is sooo worthy to be praised all the time but I have been fussing at hubby that I did not want anything else in my name or my credit until my credit score was readjusted (every 3 months on www.mycreditinform.com). He was not happy but dealt with it so… I was a 763 the last 3 months because I got a credit card and bought some furniture and had a high balance on my credit card (over $1k even though I pay it off at the end of the month!) anyways- all negative factors. So I have been praying and it honestly drove me insane that my 763 was only good versus excellent. I strive for excellence. I want to be one of the best… so I got my wonderful e-mail today that said it was updated… I was sooo antsy about checking it… but I did and low and behold I was soooo pleased to see my new fabulous number….. it is higher in case you had doubts smidgen! Ok so you want me to share? Really? Drum roll….

Hmm… should I really share that number?

I think it will be ok…

Perhaps I should wait for another day to draw more readers.. ha ha.. kidding! The new number is 792!!!! 850 is the best and I am well on my way to that but with this # I know we will have a good interest rate on a home and get that credit plus I hooked hubby to my credit card so his score will go up too since I paid the balance! Oh happy day!!!

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Oh yes and THANKS soooo much to those that have been commenting. At 32 weeks (today) it is just exciting to get an e-mail saying that someone has commented. It is like a present everyday. I don’t mind adding you to my blog roll either if you will add me to yours so just let me know! (to all of you not getting my subtle hint- freakin’ comment sometime geesh!!!)

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Well it was the best of times and the worst of times… lol. Just kidding. It was a relaxing week. Hubby was very attentive and I wasn’t much help around the house so I rested. I guess I never thought I wouldn’t be able to bend over anymore but it is becoming more of a struggle.

We did go house hunting and I fell in love with an open kitchen concept and it is now on the list as = non-negotiable and a NEED. Hubby has found a house that is extremely high priced that he likes so WHEN (positive thinking and praying) I get my position in Mobile we can reevaluate finances and options and negotiate the price with a lower offer and maybe we will get it.

I returned to work today and it was not a bad day. I had one rowdy class and once I reminded them that we had things to do and they would suffer consequences more than I- they settled right down.

I had a nice discussion with my Mother-in-Law too that I will not rehash since I have shared with Mrs. T. from work and Smidgen in emergency phone calls. I guess we have come to the conclusion it is a power struggle. Which is dumb because duh- my house, my hubby, my rules- I win hands down. Don’t MIL’s know that DIL (daughters) have a lot of power and can make life worse for them??? I mean geesh- use some common sense. I didn’t appreciate her tone nor her words nor the fact that I had to defend her son who is currently giving her money to her. I do not like for people to tell me to step up to the plate in an area when they have fallen behind in several of their own areas- it is just tacky!!!! GRRRR… anyway bottom line is that I don’t have much to say to her, my hubby and his ex will be making decisions about their daughter and hubby and I will be making decisions about Jayden and that is how that will work. It is not up for discussion. Furthermore it is not MY responsibility to take care of a child that I never see nor hear from, especially when she has a Mother who has done a not so bad job with her up to this point! *Blood pressure rising*
Anyways- there is no competition between children. If my child needs something then I will go without so that he can have because that is what a real Mother does- I can’t control what other people do.

My Seniors only have 27 days left of class (excluding weekends) that is exciting because I only teach 1 class after that! I have a dr. appointment Thursday and get my 4d pic or whatever it is that cost me $150 on sale (I think I was under the influence of shock from finding out I was pregnant or something when I agreed to pay for that and got hubby to go 1/2) but I will attempt to scan that and post. I think he has Daddy’s head and nose. I will cry if it does not resemble me at all… I mean geesh can I get a feature… of course the brain power thing he is covered on! I am soooo modest!

Ok it is late and my baby is moving funky. Every time he rolls or moves his arm fast or something I get that “lost your tummy” feeling so I am going to get him and me to bed so that he can get some sleep. He likes to be up more nowadays- I hope that is not a sign of what is to come… I look forward to a relaxed and peace seeking child.. lol

Well thanks for listening and have a good night!

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I got a leg cramp this morning upon getting out of the shower. It is horrible. My Mom even tried to knead it out and it is still there. I told her that it was under too much fat (yep, I have fat on my legs). Ok so now that you are all aware of that…

I am so glad I did not have to work or pull duty today- Hallelujah! I totally enjoy sitting home and keeping up with the news, banking, and bills. I think this will be a future career of mine right up there with Mom. Hmmm maybe I could keep kids with my own and charge $100 a week and keep 4 kids.. that would be cool. But then again I would actually have to keep the kids… maybe kids in pre-school but not babies. I want to just play and feed my own… ugh… I need a job in Mobile, Alabama. Perhaps someone will read this and get “Scrapper” a job! lol… Hey, stranger things have happened from the Internet!

Jayden is doing fine. I really like the name Jalen but there are just too doggone many. It is kind of fun looking at baby names and it is important to know the meaning. I am excited to have my Ashlynne one day though too. Ashlynne Nechele. It would be weird to find out that this is really a girl… it would also suck because I have bought boy stuff but I would welcome either… Jayden or Ashlynne – I mean how cute is that??? So we will have Kaitlyn, Jayden, and Ashlynne. Ok he was moving all last night while his Daddy was talking to me and today I guess since I am not talking a whole lot he has decided to sleep. Not much movement… ok. It is weird feeling him move, it is like butterflies/ gas or something and just feels different. I wonder if the kicking will hurt. I am eager to buy more clothes and have already looked on the Ralph Lauren site. I am not against hand me downs but I do want my child to have some things that are brand new and name brand too.

Mrs. T and I talked about formula, insurance, diapers, and daycare today! Yikes! All the stuff that will massively change your budget with a baby.

Ok Dr. Phil is on and my back is starting to ache and I need to do more laundry… the cycle never ends but I am feeling a nap today. I called Smidgen on the phone but there was no answer- guess she had to work- pity- ha, ha!!!!

Have a great President’s Day all!

Not too much happened. I taught most of the day. Had pizza at lunch, and then a fantastic dinner of spaghetti and broccoli and cheese.

Hubby and I are still talking about the whole house thing- I think we are just going to stick to prayer and let God lead us. That is what we are suppose to do anyways!

I have the dr. appt Thursday and I am still in prayer on that. Tonight it is 9 p.m. and I am falling asleep so.. I am headed that way. It is cold here. I can’t wait for winter clothes- brrrrrr.

I am going to do some elastic shopping cuz my clothes are getting tighter too.

Not much happened…. did 11 minutes on Wii Fit. I will have you know my age is 24 so I am balanced AND I gained weight although I am still underweight. Next, I totally enjoyed staying home and doing nothing. I spent Saturday eating and staying warm. Sunday we went to church with Daddy and then we visited my Dad’s uncle in the hospital. Of course by that time I was starving so I got to eat at Sunny’s- no ribs there but I did get the BBQ chicken and mac & cheese. Now I am watching my shows and headed to bed at 10 p.m.

I am keeping up with friends via the phone more on the weekends. So many call to check on me and my tummy adventures! lol… But that is cool. It makes me feel special.

Well Smidgen so graciously reminded OUR readers that I have a birthday this week. I will be remaining 25 on Thursday yet one more year. Since my sis has not caught me yet I think I am okay. I have a dr. appt that day with a pap and an ultrasound. I was nervous until I talked to Mrs. K who teaches at the other high school in my county. She assured me there was nothing to it I just needed to relax. Smidgen said the same thing… she is soooo brave and I am a wuss. But I am going to be an adult about it and keep praying for calmness and the ability to get through it. I believe I will have peace. All readers please pray that I will be okay too!

That is all. I do have a free rental this week from my local movie store so Wednesday, I am planning pizza and a movie with hubby- so exciting! lol… I am thinking Red Lobster with hubby and Mom on my b-day. Yes, my Mom is going to the doc with me again. And yes as long as I am here in town she will be planning to go to all at my request of course. I enjoy having my Mom there … hubby too… lol… I am spoiled, what can I say? I can say that I do hope to be able to be there for my own kids like my Mom has been there for me though. So that is my goal.

Okay well that is all, there isn’t anymore. One of my favorite quotes from Dr. Seuss.

Thank God It Is Almost Friday!

I have decided that it would suit me just fine to be off every Wednesday…. but… now I have tons of papers to grade and NO motivation to do it. Some students are doing better and others could care less about failing so what else can I do for them? Ay Caramba!

Well I am not cramping like I was the last couple of weeks. I am eating more and just making my portions smaller. I crave ribs, peas, and rice at the moment and my Mama ensures me that I will have some this weekend so I am excited.

It is weird being pregnant especially not really feeling anything. I am glad that I have so many knowledgeable people around me though. I have been told to read a book that describes what will happen each month to answer all of my questions. I am just going to take it one day at a time. I guess I will go light on Christmas and put some money towards diapers and such. I need to do some Internet searches so that I can get on the list for free stuff. Mom is excited because she will get a Grandma shower at her job. She said that would help both of us out. Several friends have already just fallen all over themselves talking about a baby shower. I am still in shock and downright scared of the PAP so I am just praying all goes well.

Short blog, I know- so sorry to disappoint. Just wanted to keep you updated on me.

Goodnight and don’t forget to comment. I am getting A LOT of blog hits daily and NO comments except Tipp and Smidgen. What is wrong with the rest of you??? I do not DESERVE a comment??? Yeah, I know you are at work and can’t… bah humbug. You get online at home where you can and don’t. I tell you… what is the world coming to???? Ahhh the inhumanity!

*Blog edit- My cousin…. ugh… Skinny C who used to be skinny… lol… she got old and married… hmm not so skinny now… yes I know I will be in the same boat sooner than later…. she also comments on MANY of my posts… she is right up there with smidgen… and she even goes to the old stuff and comments. So I have 3 faithfuls and Tipp is new…. Ms. D.C. and Ms. Tally are still slacking in this area!!!! lol… Just wanted to add that in.