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“It’s the Hormones!!!!”

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Well, it is!!!! I went to the doctor and cried. I told my hubby I think I may be getting post partum early too. I think it may be because I am such a “planner” and feel like I can’t plan too much with so much in the air. Ugh! Anyways so a few things have been going on with me…

First, the good stuff- I am doing ok with pregnancy all in all. My legs are killing me and I HATE walking anywhere… but I am not bleeding or having extreme pain anywhere plus I am getting some good sleep these days even though I am having some crazy dreams. All of them kind of have me just out of college (before I knew my hubby) and all my old friends are there. Today was the 1st time I dreamed I was still with my old friends and pregnant. I woke up trying to remember who was the father, was I married, did I have a real job, did I live in Tallahassee, why hadn’t I told certain people, etc. It was crazy!!! Ok so what else? Well, I talked to my boss today and we are going to try to develop a plan for me to come to work maybe 1/2 days the next 5 days since I am experiencing pain in my legs and morning sickness again. I have 53 hours to use and I am NOT afraid to use them!

Ok so what is the bad? Well, I still have no inclination on whether I will be in AL next year. (I was invited back to my job for next year – even though I am tenured- it was nice to be invited back because she thinks I am a good teacher!) I had to resign (well hubby did) the lease for another 6 months since we are unsure if we will be getting a home in AL or not. My legs hurt so bad in the mornings and after long naps that I want to remove them! :) I miss having the energy to want to do anything outside of sleep. My friend (PJB- the mom) said that as a new Mom I wouldn’t need much sleep as I will be running on adrenaline so I look forward to that… lol… I did go to the doc and I just broke down in there too… it is the hormones she said! She also hugged me! :) She really is awesome. I am not contracting and she told me the baby would be here soon so I just needed to get ready so I can push it out. She then added it was called “Labor” for a reason so… to all my prayer partners- please start praying now that all goes well and I have an easy delivery if there is such a thing! The ultrasound tech tried to get a weight on the baby and she came up with 6pounds and 11 ounces. I thought I was going to lose my lunch as I said “Excuse me????” She said that it might be smaller, and I told her that I was fine with that. Sis and I were 6 lbs and 10 ounces so I am ok with that size. I hope I don’t have huge baby- Lord hammercy!!!!

Well now I will attempt to leave you some updated pics… pics of what? Well, just pics I should have posted… some of me… my new toys that hubby put together, my Mom’s living room that I have taken over… etc.

33 weeks...

33 weeks...

 

37 weeks

37 weeks

 
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I have not started hurting much yet just ready to get him out
  
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After my Mom announced that I was HUGE and wanted to take a pic for my aunt. I was thinking “ugly” thoughts and it showed in the pic. No matter how funny she thinks it is I do not want to hear… “giggles, you are so pregnant- bless your heart!”
 
 
Now for all of my toys- well Jayden’s toys…
 
 
 The bassinet (5 in 1)       Bouncy seat
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May 23, 2009 at 1:46 am

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New Year’s Resolutions…

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Yes, this is my 2nd post today- I am soooo on a roll.

Anyways, I visited seven chicks and Social Chick asked about new year’s resolutions. I did not do so hot with last year’s so I was not going to make any for this year but in response to her post, these are the ones I came up with:

1. Get closer with God as a family.
2. After baby, get on birth control.
3. Save, save, and save some more for a new home.
4. Move into a 1 story apartment or home.
5. Find a job in Mobile, AL without taking a paycut.
6. Be a wonderful Mommy and wifey.
7. Make more to do lists and follow through!

There are many more but this is a start… I will also have explanations in my new page for 2009 so stay tuned….

*Drumroll please*

Here are my new maternity clothes… after looking at the pics, I discovered I am a bit drab with all the dark colors but I think I can make it work nevertheless. Plus at this point unless someone ships it to me, I am not doing anymore shopping! So there…. ok not to prolong the time anymore…

Motherhood clothes for Christmas...

Motherhood clothes for Christmas...

 
So here are the clothes I actually bought with Mrs. T’s, Daddy’s and hubby’s Christmas $. I got 3 pairs of pants, a pair of jeans, 2 dresses, and several tops- summer, spring, and winter.
 
Maternity clothes by sis!

Maternity clothes by sis!

 
 
Here are the clothes that my sister picked out for me. It turned out to be Christmas and Birthday from her and my parents. She did really well. She is so fashion savvy. She did help shop for the clothes above too. I did not get anything without her approval. So now I have plenty of clothes to get me through the next 5 months and hopefully my next and last time of pregnancy too! You can never plan too early! :)
 
Ok so this is the end… short post but I promised maternity pics and I delivered… a little late but better than never. Thanks for reading and commenting. Have a fantastic New Year’s Eve!!!! I will be up until midnight as I did get my nap in early! So if you want to call me because you are awake then you are welcome to do so! :)

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December 31, 2008 at 10:04 pm

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Daddies and Mommies…

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Well today I heard a bee in the house. Of course I crouched down and almost immediately was about to holler for my “Daddy” to come kill the bee. I saw the bee yesterday and couldn’t get up the courage nor the speed to kill it. But as soon as my Daddy came home he assured me that all I had to do was holler at him and he would kill it for me. I tell you what would a girl do without a good Daddy??? Anyways.. my Daddy is an excellent Daddy. I am almost 27 years old (shutup Smidgen!) and I still call on him to get the bugs or help me with the simple stuff and he never complains or even looks at me funny. It is the same action since I can remember. He just takes action and handles it. What can I say? My Daddy is a “doer” and so is my Mama. I think I get it from both of them. My little sis is definitely a mover and a shaker in her own little world and I am sure she gets it from them too!

OK so the reason for this post… I read a story about “The Invisible Mom”. I only have a couple of close friends that have children as most of us just have not taken that great leap. However I sent it to a friend and my own Mom and thought I would share it on my blog as it did brighten the day of one of my friends.

It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I’m on the phone and ask to be taken to the store.No one can see if I’m on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all.
The invisible Mom. Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more: Can you fix this?  Can you tie this?  Can you open this? Some days I’m not a pair of hands; I’m not even a human being. I’m a clock to ask, ‘What time is it?’ I’m a satellite guide to answer, ‘What number is the Disney Channel?’ I’m a car to order, ‘Right around 5:30, please.’ I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes that studied history and the mind that graduated sum a cum laude – but now they had disappeared into the peanut butter, never to be seen again. She’s going; she’s going; she is gone! One night, a group of us were having dinner, celebrating the return of a friend from England … Janice had just gotten back from a fabulous trip, and she was going on and on about the hotel she stayed in.  I was sitting there, looking around at the others all put together so well. It was hard not to compare and feel sorry for myself. I was feeling pretty pathetic, when Janice turned to me with a beautifully wrapped package, and said, ‘I brought you this.’
It was a book on the great cathedrals of Europe.  I wasn’t exactly sure why she’d given it to me until I read her inscription:‘To Charlotte, with admiration for the greatness of what you are building when no one sees.’ In the days ahead I would read – no, devour – the book.  And I would discover what would become for me, four life-changing truths, after which I could pattern my work: No one can say who built the great cathedrals – we have no record of their names.  These builders gave their whole lives for a work they would never see finished.  They made great sacrifices and expected no credit.  The passion of their building was fueled by their faith that the eyes of God saw everything. A legendary story in the book told of a rich man who came to visit the cathedral while it was being built, and he saw a workman carving a tiny bird on the inside of a beam. He was puzzled and asked the man, ‘Why are you spending so much time carving that bird into a beam that will be covered by the roof?  No one will ever see it.’ . . . ‘Because God sees.’
I closed the book, feeling the missing piece fall into place. It was almost as if I heard God whispering to me, ‘I see you, Charlotte. I see the sacrifices you make every day, even when no one around you does. No act of kindness you’ve done, no sequin you’ve sewn on, no cupcake you’ve baked, is too small for me to notice and smile over. You are building a great cathedral, but you can’t see right now what it will become.’ At times, my invisibility feels like an affliction. But it is not a disease that is erasing my life. It is the cure for the disease of my own self-centeredness. It is the antidote to my strong, stubborn pride. I keep the right perspective when I see myself as a great builder. As one of the people who show up at a job that they will never see finished, to work on something that their name will never be on. The writer of the book went so far as to say that no cathedrals could ever be built in our lifetime because there are so few people willing to sacrifice to that degree. When I really think about it, I don’t want my son to tell the friend he’s bringing home from college for Thanksgiving, ‘My Mom gets up at 4 in the morning and bakes homemade pies, and then she hand bastes a turkey for three hours and presses all the linens for the table.’  That would mean I’d built a shrine or a monument to myself.  I just want him to want to come home.  And then, if there is anything more to say to his friend, to add, ‘you’re going to love it there.’

 Well I also received some news today. I have an interview next week at a college. Although I should be excited I am not really. I am content knowing that God hasn’t forgotten me and I am still on the list. I really would like a position that pays me more as I do have 5 years of teaching experience. However it is also the idea of getting my foot in the door and just tightening the belt to save more money. I don’t know that can be done but it is worth a try. Hubby sent me an e-mail today stating how proud he was of me and how much he loved me. It was sweet and made me smile. I am still hoping for another position where I have the potential to ean a good bit more than what I am currently earning. It would just be great if I could afford all the bills myself so hubby can focus on school. Although that is a little far fetched as far as roles- I also know that when I do have a baby and I want to stay at home he will be 100% supportive.

I say “Stay At Home Mom” but I am not sure I am cut out for it. Maybe if I just had one. Ugh, I tell you it is a hard job. It seems like the work never stops. I remember playing Barbies with my sister and we always sent our husbands to work and the Mommies stayed at home with the babies. Even as we lived the lavish lifestyle we did- fancy cars- we still had maids that cleaned the house and handled all the stuff that was not so “glamorous”. Funny, now that I think about it- we never changed diapers or had to feed the baby. Shoot- they were always happy and took a nap when we got ready for them too- at most when it was convenient! lol… I suppose it is nothing like that in real life. But as more friends at work and outside of work discuss children (the ones that have, want, do not want, or are talking about talking about having or adopting them- smidgen that was you again) I can’t help but hope that we do have one soon but not in the next year or two. What can I say? I am such a Planner… I want my house and some savings and the ability to provide my full attention and job security and a happy life. I had that so how dare I NOT provide my children with that. I had a college fund, a car at 16, money for trips, family vacations (that got ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC as I got older- Hawaii, St. Augustine, Bahamas cruise- just sisters on this one), and no worries even after college. My little sis has had it just as good. My parents really sacrificed. My sis and I both had pretty new vehicles at 16 when our parents were driving okay vehicles. Of course that is NOT what it is all about but I mean at the least I want to give my kids what I had. I absolutely loved childhood now that I look back at it. Especially when you hear the not so great tales of sooo many others.

Ok I have rambled forever. I am actually baking tonight… ok…  I am waiting on my Mom because I am a little nervous about making it alone. I know, I know… worst case scenario I burn the Amish bread that I am soooo excited about. I am going to get up early this week so I can drink some coffee with the Amish bread I am making. I would share the recipe but you have to have batter and get it from someone. So if you are a local and you want some let me know and I will gladly share.  We are making 3 loaves and freezing them so I am excited. I get to have 2 (yes I am leaving Mom one!) next week- so coffee and bread every morning with some grits and eggs- Hubby will love that!

Traders work on the floor of the New York Stock Exchange, Monday Oct. 13, 2008. Wall Street snapped back Monday from last week's devastating losses after major governments announced further steps to support the global banking system, including plans by the U.S. Treasury to buy stocks of some banks. (AP Photo/Richard Drew)  The Dow went up 936 points in one day- biggest gain ever. I guess it is time to reinvest… ugh.. I am still looking at house plans and smidgen and I have agreed on some. I really feel we will be living side by side on day. Yes, it is a personal mission of mine to stay at home with her children and tell my hubby I am just unable to go to work! lol… Funny thing is I told him that and he said that was perfectly ok. So there you have it smidgen- formal approval. I also still want to plan a couple’s cruise soon so…. for all of you interested be thinking of some good dates. Winter months are cheaper! Ok enough rambling for today, have a fantastic Monday evening. Jon and Kate plus 8 comes on! Whooohooo!

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October 14, 2008 at 6:12 am

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