Living Life as Jayden's Mommy….

Yes 6 weeks left and my little one will be here and life will never be the same. I will be totally responsible for another human for more than an hour or 2- scary thought. Anyway I do have updated pics but I got bigger. How do I know??? I can tell because my pregnancy belt (yeah for my back) does not fit right anymore. It still helps but at about 3 it has to come off because it gets on my nerves. I stand straight and my legs have immense pressure. I walk like it hurts because it DOES hurt. My doc is out having her own baby and the replacement well she is not very helpful or sympathetic- so glad she is not my regular doc! I will get the gall to add all that one day. I am back to napping and resting and now sweating- yes I know it is natural but it is gross! I hate it! I avoid it at all costs. So now when I nap I cover up and then wake up sweating under my neck usually. I told my Mom and she was like “you are pregnant!” I did not like that solution as it was not one. So… I have come up with a solution- I have no silk and cotton is hot… so nothing works… literally!

Ok so I was reading sevenchicks blog and looked at the lists people offered of things you need for a new baby. I have no pacifiers but I figure after my shower on Sat. Maybe even Sunday I will just take my money and go stock up at Wal-Mart on all that stuff. I have diapers and wipes to last for a minute (like a week or 2 so far) and thanks to a couple of high school friends, I went and got some preemies just in case my new lil’ one can’t wear the big ones. I got my stroller and car seat and plan to play with that tomorrow when I can get my hubby to drag it all out for me. I ordered my bassinet (thanks to Mom) and I got hubby to agree to get me the playard thing that costs $150. I am so matchy it is a shame. I told hubby that when we have our Ashlynne we would have to get new stuff because I like pink. What do you mean, what did he say (smidgen)? He did not say a word, he laughed and said ok whatever you want. That is soooo nice to hear sometimes by the way. He really is good to me even though I get on his nerves a lot. We have decided that it was nothing but the Lord that brought us together and is keeping us together, lol. I am driving him crazy these days!

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Conversation with guidance counselor (she gives good guidance to the adults and students!)

Me: My husband said he likes me like this… and then I frown

Guidance Counselor: Why?

Me: I don’t know.. we can’t do anything (you know be intimate and all) … and I can’t do anything for myself either and I am tired of it.

Guidance Counselor: Well, I don’t know about you but I am ready to have this over with

Me: Me too and I hate to break it to hubby but I am not going to be pregnant all the time!

Just reflecting I guess I should be happy to still be attractive while I am huge but I am not… I miss my old shape and being able to bend over and eat to live and sleep on my tummy! Hubby has decided he wants an orchestra (in children) and I told him that was cool- he can just pay for one. I have decided (unlike Mrs. T and Smidgen) that I am willing to go for 3 of my own and then we still have Katie. She wants a sister and I want her to have one. So hopefully after Jayden we will have our Ashlynne and then this Mommy will be done. But if not and we have another son, we might have a ______ (no name but it has to end in the “n” sound and have a “y” in it.) But we are leaving it in God’s hands.

OK so now so many people all over are in job limbo. It is a HORRIBLE feeling. I feel blessed to have a job where I am. The people I work with (minus a couple) are pretty fantastic! But I know that God is going to work out the situation for me and hubby to raise Jayden together.

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Well it was the best of times and the worst of times… lol. Just kidding. It was a relaxing week. Hubby was very attentive and I wasn’t much help around the house so I rested. I guess I never thought I wouldn’t be able to bend over anymore but it is becoming more of a struggle.

We did go house hunting and I fell in love with an open kitchen concept and it is now on the list as = non-negotiable and a NEED. Hubby has found a house that is extremely high priced that he likes so WHEN (positive thinking and praying) I get my position in Mobile we can reevaluate finances and options and negotiate the price with a lower offer and maybe we will get it.

I returned to work today and it was not a bad day. I had one rowdy class and once I reminded them that we had things to do and they would suffer consequences more than I- they settled right down.

I had a nice discussion with my Mother-in-Law too that I will not rehash since I have shared with Mrs. T. from work and Smidgen in emergency phone calls. I guess we have come to the conclusion it is a power struggle. Which is dumb because duh- my house, my hubby, my rules- I win hands down. Don’t MIL’s know that DIL (daughters) have a lot of power and can make life worse for them??? I mean geesh- use some common sense. I didn’t appreciate her tone nor her words nor the fact that I had to defend her son who is currently giving her money to her. I do not like for people to tell me to step up to the plate in an area when they have fallen behind in several of their own areas- it is just tacky!!!! GRRRR… anyway bottom line is that I don’t have much to say to her, my hubby and his ex will be making decisions about their daughter and hubby and I will be making decisions about Jayden and that is how that will work. It is not up for discussion. Furthermore it is not MY responsibility to take care of a child that I never see nor hear from, especially when she has a Mother who has done a not so bad job with her up to this point! *Blood pressure rising*
Anyways- there is no competition between children. If my child needs something then I will go without so that he can have because that is what a real Mother does- I can’t control what other people do.

My Seniors only have 27 days left of class (excluding weekends) that is exciting because I only teach 1 class after that! I have a dr. appointment Thursday and get my 4d pic or whatever it is that cost me $150 on sale (I think I was under the influence of shock from finding out I was pregnant or something when I agreed to pay for that and got hubby to go 1/2) but I will attempt to scan that and post. I think he has Daddy’s head and nose. I will cry if it does not resemble me at all… I mean geesh can I get a feature… of course the brain power thing he is covered on! I am soooo modest!

Ok it is late and my baby is moving funky. Every time he rolls or moves his arm fast or something I get that “lost your tummy” feeling so I am going to get him and me to bed so that he can get some sleep. He likes to be up more nowadays- I hope that is not a sign of what is to come… I look forward to a relaxed and peace seeking child.. lol

Well thanks for listening and have a good night!

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My hubby has composed a song called “It’s All Right”… it is actually a song that you can ride to, swing to, or just play and work. It is sooo awesome and relaxing. There are no words currently and if I could play it for you all I would but we hope that the single will be available by the end of the summer on itunes or something. It is soooo good. Smidgen and I have discussed ways to get it out and about so that was exciting too…

The week was rough. I have decided that even moreso now I want to move to AL. I was complacent in FL and then God decided to allow the devil to stir some things up. Let’s just say when people change positions, new people come in and things just change. As a teacher, schools are getting worse before they get better. I do feel I am called to teach. I acknowledge that… but who says that I can’t do it somewhere else? Or in a different environment? Hmmm… so I am praying specifically now for a new position at a high or middle school that is considered a “good school” where students and parents respect teachers. I would also like to have one class (one lesson plan), no more than 2 different classes and then maybe 6 periods a day or less. I am not big on block schedule but it will do. I would also like to have no duty. If I do have duty, I would like to have no lunch duty. I would also like to see $9,000 pay increase (or a little less) and cheap family monthly insurance (like $300) and good benefits. I would also like to love my coworkers and find some really good friends that I share a common bond with. A school and school system that understands teachers need supplies and support of the administration. I also hope that money issues are not too bad! Now talk about specifics- I think I have it covered! So there you have it my prayer…

I decided against Bless Your Heart this week simply because it is just too personal right now. I am tired of people thinking the world revolves around them… duh- my world revolves around me, lol… anyways… it was a good week spent with hubby so it all worked out in the end. I do have a few students who are soooo sweet and are truly at school to learn about life and get ready for the real world. I feel sorry for the kids who parents always jump up and in to handle small issues- it teaches the kids nothing in the long run. Accept your wrongdoings- do better and move on!

This is a FANTASTIC movie. I watched it with my hubby the other night. It was highly recommended by some of my friends, Mrs. T and others, but it is one that everyone should have in their collection right there with the Tyler Perry and T.D. Jakes’ movies.

Anyways, the gist of the movie… well I won’t share but one of the infamous quotes paraphrased is… just because something is fireproof does not mean that a fire will not come to it, it just means that something can withstand the fire. That is how marriages should be. We all take vows for better or for worse so when the fire comes, we have to be ready to stand.

I saw T.D. Jakes’ movie, Not Easily Broken, too! It was great. There was a part that showed what can happen when you allow others into your life, namely the opposite sex too. Needless to say I think it was a wake-up call for a few people. You can’t be a married man and make “new” single female friends… especially those who tend to be lonely and need someone to lean on. It is funny but I think women do have those guys in their lives that are in the “friend” zone and then when we get a “boyfriend” we put them on hold until the guy is gone or worse when we get married we forget all about them!  Anyways, it too is an excellent movie that can be appreciated across the races. Yes, it is a movie with a lot of black people but there are some white people in it and the concepts go for all of us. There was some important points about allowing your parents in your marriage too! I am glad I don’t have to deal with that drama but so many others do….

Hubby drove me to Mobile for the weekend so I decided to treat him and Jayden. Hubby took me to Olive Garden and I treated him to dinner and a drink. I had a virgin daiquiri and it was excellent. We had a wonderful waitress who shared that she has SIX kids already who are in school and one on the way. She said she was not too happy but that she had thought about having  another one. She did not mention a husband and we saw no ring. It was kind of sad. I told her that I was happy about being pregnant now but this is #1. She told us that it takes a special person to have a lot of children. I told her she was right and it was not me and I knew that. I will be adding her to my prayer list. Anyways so after Olive Garden we ran back to the house to rest and THEN we headed to the mall. I searched for some deals but was not overexcited about anything so I bought Jayden a onesie from GAP and then 2 onesies from Children’s Place. His Daddy wanted the one that said “My Daddy is a Superhero” and then I got one for next Valentine’s Day that says “Little Heartbreaker”… too cute. I will post some pics soon. Then we headed to the movies to see “Madea Goes to Jail”… it too was excellent and one that I recommend. The theater was packed BUT it was sooo funny and had a great story line. Madea does not take stuff from anyone and that showed in this movie just like the others…  it was worth the $18… yep- that is what I said the night movie was $9.00 each. I almost lost dinner but I just paid. It is amazing that we are in a recession. You could not tell at the theater though. Everyone had popcorn and drinks! I told hubby that we ate 1st to save the $. I am glad that we are blessed enough that we don’t have to do without right now and that we are able to save more than many people make in a month!

So we are thankful this weekend. We were able to spend time together and just look forward to living together again with our baby. I did clean some this weekend because 1100+ square feet can become overwhelming! I did little stuff. I cleaned the shower, put up clothes and cleaned the bedroom, got the kitchen straightened up, and got the coffee tables in the living room straight. He can clean up the rest of the stuff. He is a good hubby and I really am blessed. He is so patient with my mood swings and all… yeah I know it may be a shock but I can be pretty darn mean!

Well I hope to do better blogging this week. Hubby took some pics of me in my pajamas so I will post those as well as Jayden’s clothes thus far… too cute!!!

Have a great evening all!

I went to Wal-Mart after church (while hungry) and loaded up on snacks for after school. I also ventured into the baby department after being completely disgusted with the maternity rack- yes… 1 rack- not department! Anyways, I got to look at strollers and found this one in my preferred colors of green and brown:

I also saw the paisley print in person and it is bright and really cute to my surprise. I also like that it is at Wal-Mart and cheaper than the other. There is a Wal-Mart close to all my family members- I cannot say the same for Target!

Ok so here is the Wyndham that my sister likes… I can get the total package for $525.

 I did find some clothes at Beall’s outlet. I bought 3 tops- none are maternity- and a pair of Old Navy maternity jeans that I ABSOLUTELY love! I also got a pair of black flats since my ballerina Sam & Libby’s look horrible and I will wear them anyway! I paid $45 for it all with tax. I am soooo proud of myself!

Oh and something tragic that happened this week. My Mom backed into hubby’s car. I thought it was funny and so did he but I think he is going to get it fixed. He has been in 2 mishaps in the last 3 weeks. I am hoping nothing else happens because I know this is all fuel to allow him to get the new car he wanted… lol. It was an interesting week!