Living Life as Jayden's Mommy….

Well, Ms. Tiny aka Ashlynne did not have me up early but I am sore up top so I have to adjust carefully in the bed when I get uncomfy. I woke up to NO MILK! Ugh! My Mom drank it all! Can you believe that??? She is going to get some tomorrow I think so I had cheese grits for breakfast a nice helping I might add.

I was pretty full or so I thought. Since I was going to my Dad’s church I knew that no one would say anything to the Pastor’s daughter if I brought in my mug of water, crackers, and chips. Ms. Bootswiththefur suggested saltines which I don’t normally eat as a snack between meals, they worked perfect! I ate all of them in church! Then my Dad acknowledged my sister and I coming to church as I was putting a huge Dorito in my mouth. Sis cracked up and I was just embarrassed! Then my sister (as loud as possible) told my Dad to make the announcement for me. I was a deer in headlights! My Dad asked me (FROM THE PULPIT) could he tell. I told him that was fine and then he boldly announced that I was “With child!” I thought I was going to go through the floor. Why can’t I just be pregnant??? Ugh.. he is too silly sometimes… lol. Anyways so then I had to get congratulated by everyone and hear their wishes of little boys and twins! I announced that I wanted one child and a girl though. All I could really think of was my field peas, ribs, and white rice waiting on me at home though. We left church and headed home so that I could eat. It was yummy to my tummy too!

My Dad did tell me that my appetite had picked up and I told him that I knew. But I just wanted to eat so I should. I am eating healthy. The book said not to get hungry. I really need to be reading up on it but my main focus is my Pap and my pelvic exam. I am praying regularly that I can go through with it and it doesn’t hurt too much. I am still nervous.. not scared though. I guess it is something to suck up and just get it over with. Ugh!

Todays’ sermon was about the Power of Prayer and how we need to pray for everyone and everything. We should know that our heavenly Father is there and we can depend on him. We can fast and pray in times of need, and I can attest that it actually works too! Second, we must have pure motives. This is about God and not about you. I have to remind myself of that when situations occur. Why is this happening to me? Well, why not you? Some way, some how God is going to come through and this is your chance to glorify him in your situation! Third, you must make sure you have confidence in the God that you serve. God does answer prayer. We have to all remember that God does answer prayers and he does it in his own time.

Well, I am looking for property now and reconsidering home options too. I do hope to hear something tomorrow and maybe talk to a finance person as well. Although I have a swamped week. Yes, I have a bargaining committee meeting tomorrow (let’s see if teachers can get some $). I also have a Delta Kappa Gamma meeting where I am now chairing a committee- I am excited about that. And the most important event this week- I need a hair do! My edges are horrible!!!! Ugh… after Wednesday I should be good to go. I think I am going to have to go to the tutor thing once to introduce my replacement… not sure when that will happen though. Oh well… 

Good news for the week- we get paid! Whooohoooo! I can continue my savings and get that stash built up for all the new surprises. I am very confident that all of the Godparents and adopted aunts will provide plenty of diapers and wipes so that is exciting… lol… I also know that will be my Christmas wish list. Speaking of.. I need to get started on that right away… my birthday is next week- to think I will be 27 according to my Mom but I think I am going to hold on to 25 one more year. Third time is the charm!

Goodnight, thanks for reading, thanks in advance for commenting, and keep blogging for you bloggers!

The topic for today was about being hopeful and hopeless. My hubby said something pretty darn great- he is a pretty smart guy although I hate to admit it to him because he already knows it… anyways, he said that it probably was harder for a rich person to get into heaven because they have nothing to hope for- they already have everything they want. Imagine that… I do hope to be wealthy one day in that I can pay all the bills and get the majority of my wants too. However, bottom line I would rather go to heaven than be wealthy. The pastor shared a story about a cup of coffee. He said that a bum approached a finely dressed minister and offered him a sip of his coffee. The minister looked at the bum and thought you look nasty and like you have not bathed in weeks, why in the world are you offering me coffee? But being a good Christian, he graciously took a sip (although it liked to have killed him) and it was actually really good. So he asked the bum- what made you want to share your coffee with me? The bum said well I didn’t care about what you had on or anything but I figure if God could bless me with a good cup of coffee then I should share it with others… hmmm… That is a powerful thought- God has shared so much with all of us- we are being selfish not to share his goodess- that can mean money, knowledge, or other things.

Okay so… he defined hopeful as expecting something- looking for something to be obtained. I am very hopeful about my new postition in Mobile. I am also hopeful in that even if it takes a week or a month for me to start my new position, I know that God will come through. He ALWAYS does… like I tell my friends, his time is DEFINITELY not my time but he is always ON TIME! Patience is the key when it comes to God. You have to trust, believe and be hopeful. Our scripture came from Ephesians 2: 1-5, 11-13 in case anyone else out there wants to read it. God went down to hell and claimed all of us when he put his son on the cross. He knew we would mess up, but in his grace and goodness he gives us chance after chance. Guess we should really not be “graceless Christians” (an oxymoron)- that was the message last Sunday. Church is really good and practical. I feel sorry for those who don’t get as much from it. That just reiterates how important it is to attend and how I need to take my own children. I am glad I was raised in the church. The devil creeps in every Sunday at 7:00 a.m. to tell me that I don’t have to go and I can miss a Sunday but I move forward anyway. My hubby hates getting up but he does it anyway.

I remain hopeful this week as I applied for several positions last week but also hope to hear from my top choice school this week. That is my word of the week- HOPE and all of its forms. I plan to spread a little hope to all that I talk to. I am hopeful that I can do this and also hold my tongue because boy does it get out of hand quick… I am getting better (I started really doing it today) at my tongue and still need to pray about my thoughts!

I should get my Wii Fit this week so that is something to look forward to for the weekend and I should get a check next week after putting in what I hope is the full time at my current job. I do want to interview and I HOPE to knock their socks off with my knowledge, determination, drive, and other credentials. This is soooo my dream job so I HOPE that it is in God’s plan. I have learned that if he does not have it in the cards it will not happen and I know that some things are not good for us and they are in the cards so that we will have the experience. I know that God takes things from me but I have yet to lose anything that I regret losing. Not one blessed thing! I can’t think of anything… I lost my dog when I was little- no love lost there- barely remember him… I lost my grandparents and other family to death but I know they are with God and doing way better than me- not to mention I believe they are watching out for me- so that is cool too. I lost some loves or what I thought was loves and I am okay with that- they were not good for me anyway apparently. I have lost some friends but I am okay with that because I have gained more that might be even better for me. People change… relationships change… I have changed. I am more about me, I do feel more grown up and less concerned about stuff that I have no control over. I have my own goals and dreams and now family to attend to.

My HOPE for everyone is to prioritize and get stuff right. Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11) So hope and faith go together. I am faithful and hopeful. I am faithful in doing what thus says the Lord or at least trying to be better at it. I am hopeful that my wishes and dreams come true.

For right now- I am hopeful about my job and I have great faith that I will get my A okay this week with a start date. Now- if they can get me interviewed by Tuesday afternoon- I will be great!

I am soo long winded. This thing counts words and I am almost at 1,000- to think. I thought this would be a short post… lol