Living Life as Jayden's Mommy….

They are not here yet but they are on their way! Ok so work is getting harder to attend since I feel I should be in another town with my hubby. Even students felt sorry for me when I shared that I do not get to go home to my hubby and I am a newlywed. My cousin (at work) assures me that the position is coming as do my parents- they all just see it in the Lord’s plan… so… with that said I know my happy days are coming as I wait in God’s waiting room. I did see a position or 2 that I would LOVE to qualify for. It just makes me sick that I have no administrative experience because if I did then I would sooo have it made right now. Nevertheless I found a college and I applied for a couple of positions and submitted my beautiful cover letter and resume that Angiebblues helped me out with so I have confidence that maybe I will get an interview so that I may wow them with my brilliance, organization, and just plain common sense. So… I have a new rejuvenatedspirit as I go to work at least with something to look forward to. I should also receive some information about my new state certification too. My main desire is that if I am offered a position that it pays well so I can cover the state taxes and retirement plans that I currently have.  Although I can take a pay cut and be ok in my new state. I feel I worked hard and endured a lot to get to my current salary so… I would like to remain at that point and just move up.

I think it would be cool to work at home too. Hubby is there but still we have 2 little desks and mine is easily moved so I think we would be okay. It would be cool to have an office to go into if I wanted to though too. So perhaps everyone out there in lala land could say a prayer for me. I have praised the Lord for my mountain and for getting me over/through the mountain. I know that he has heard me and that he knows the desires of my heart. I will get my position in my new town and be able to meet some new friends and hang out with my new peeps in all kinds of atmospheres.

We are still planning to purchase a home in May of 2009 and I have talked to a Realtor that is sending us information. Perhaps I am just a busy body but it is absolutely just fun looking at properties and doing the research on the neighborhoods. I have decided that 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a garage and a kitchen that opens to the living room is pretty much what I want. Hubby would like a yard- not sure why since it has to be mowed but he has visions of bbqs and lots of leisure time outside dreams. I am thinking only in the evenings when it is cool but that is soooo just me apparently. I have found some wonderful properties but it would cost too much to break a lease so we will just wait it out. I am glad that we signed a month earlier than we planned to initially because now it will be up in May versus June.

OK so happy days are here again and I know they might be short lived but I prayed for a little nibble with the job hunt as in something that I qualify for that I could apply for and maybe have a chance at. So with that I am continuing to pray for families and friends and all their wishes, dreams, and aspirations.

It is scary to think where I might be without a great family, husband and friends.

To think, I was trying to take a nap this evening. (crazy, right????!!!!) Anyways 2 friends called me today to check on me and update me on them. It was so nice especially being that it is not the weekend! I am blessed.

It is sad that both friends mentioned work and I just didn’t have a whole lot to say. I am in ”God’s waiting room” so it is difficult to answer about the doctor visit, ya know? I enjoy teaching. I have one class that exerts soooo much energy from me. We get off topic a lot but the kids are very open about their opinions and just funny. We get through our lessons (not sure how always) but after that class I am beat. I am itching for a change. Although I know what I have and don’t know what I will get, I think I still want something different especially if it is in my new home town. I would like to be near hubby if possible. I think that is healthy for a marriage… lol… It is really hard to complain when soooo many people do not have jobs period and are struggling all together with the job market. So, I am thankful that I have a good position, I received a small raise and I have heard that we are trying for another raise of a small percentage.

I am a child of God, therefore I am blessed. I can knock on God’s door anytime. He knows the desires of my heart. He can and will fix it all. I have to remain strong and know that I am in a safe place. I would rather be in God’s waiting room versus the path of Satan too!

OK short blog tonight. I am going to pray for all the bereaved families tonight who may be joining me in that waiting room.

The topic for today was about being hopeful and hopeless. My hubby said something pretty darn great- he is a pretty smart guy although I hate to admit it to him because he already knows it… anyways, he said that it probably was harder for a rich person to get into heaven because they have nothing to hope for- they already have everything they want. Imagine that… I do hope to be wealthy one day in that I can pay all the bills and get the majority of my wants too. However, bottom line I would rather go to heaven than be wealthy. The pastor shared a story about a cup of coffee. He said that a bum approached a finely dressed minister and offered him a sip of his coffee. The minister looked at the bum and thought you look nasty and like you have not bathed in weeks, why in the world are you offering me coffee? But being a good Christian, he graciously took a sip (although it liked to have killed him) and it was actually really good. So he asked the bum- what made you want to share your coffee with me? The bum said well I didn’t care about what you had on or anything but I figure if God could bless me with a good cup of coffee then I should share it with others… hmmm… That is a powerful thought- God has shared so much with all of us- we are being selfish not to share his goodess- that can mean money, knowledge, or other things.

Okay so… he defined hopeful as expecting something- looking for something to be obtained. I am very hopeful about my new postition in Mobile. I am also hopeful in that even if it takes a week or a month for me to start my new position, I know that God will come through. He ALWAYS does… like I tell my friends, his time is DEFINITELY not my time but he is always ON TIME! Patience is the key when it comes to God. You have to trust, believe and be hopeful. Our scripture came from Ephesians 2: 1-5, 11-13 in case anyone else out there wants to read it. God went down to hell and claimed all of us when he put his son on the cross. He knew we would mess up, but in his grace and goodness he gives us chance after chance. Guess we should really not be “graceless Christians” (an oxymoron)- that was the message last Sunday. Church is really good and practical. I feel sorry for those who don’t get as much from it. That just reiterates how important it is to attend and how I need to take my own children. I am glad I was raised in the church. The devil creeps in every Sunday at 7:00 a.m. to tell me that I don’t have to go and I can miss a Sunday but I move forward anyway. My hubby hates getting up but he does it anyway.

I remain hopeful this week as I applied for several positions last week but also hope to hear from my top choice school this week. That is my word of the week- HOPE and all of its forms. I plan to spread a little hope to all that I talk to. I am hopeful that I can do this and also hold my tongue because boy does it get out of hand quick… I am getting better (I started really doing it today) at my tongue and still need to pray about my thoughts!

I should get my Wii Fit this week so that is something to look forward to for the weekend and I should get a check next week after putting in what I hope is the full time at my current job. I do want to interview and I HOPE to knock their socks off with my knowledge, determination, drive, and other credentials. This is soooo my dream job so I HOPE that it is in God’s plan. I have learned that if he does not have it in the cards it will not happen and I know that some things are not good for us and they are in the cards so that we will have the experience. I know that God takes things from me but I have yet to lose anything that I regret losing. Not one blessed thing! I can’t think of anything… I lost my dog when I was little- no love lost there- barely remember him… I lost my grandparents and other family to death but I know they are with God and doing way better than me- not to mention I believe they are watching out for me- so that is cool too. I lost some loves or what I thought was loves and I am okay with that- they were not good for me anyway apparently. I have lost some friends but I am okay with that because I have gained more that might be even better for me. People change… relationships change… I have changed. I am more about me, I do feel more grown up and less concerned about stuff that I have no control over. I have my own goals and dreams and now family to attend to.

My HOPE for everyone is to prioritize and get stuff right. Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11) So hope and faith go together. I am faithful and hopeful. I am faithful in doing what thus says the Lord or at least trying to be better at it. I am hopeful that my wishes and dreams come true.

For right now- I am hopeful about my job and I have great faith that I will get my A okay this week with a start date. Now- if they can get me interviewed by Tuesday afternoon- I will be great!

I am soo long winded. This thing counts words and I am almost at 1,000- to think. I thought this would be a short post… lol