Living Life as Jayden's Mommy….

I have sooo much grading to do… why did I wait until the end to do it? Well it was strategic, I had to cover so much info before I assigned it. I did get the career essays graded for Economics and now I have some Govt. essays to grade. It will be fairly easy to grade those if I can just sit long enough to actually do it! I also have tax papers to grade from last week but I only have 1 class remaining, thank the Lord!

I have to give finals this week and another dr. appt. this Friday. I will be checked for dilation this week since my doc should be back… not looking forward to that at all. Anyways, I figure if I hold out until May 28th then I can take off the rest of the year and still get paid if I had to. I am going to get a double check on my due date because I found some paperwork and it stated my expected due date according to measurements was June 7th which is a Sunday. He has been doing somersaltsin my belly for the last hour and I am not sure what is up with that but I thought he might be hungry so I ate… but that didn’t settle it… perhaps he is ready to hear my voice again.. who knows.. I think I am ready to meet him and stop being preggo for about 3 years until we can welcome him a little sister, Ashlynne. Yes, I am bound and determined to have a girl!

Well I had another shower at church today. It involved everyone dropping off gifts and cards, lol. I also found out that University of Phoenix is starting an online high school so… maybe I can look into getting into that. I heard a word at 7 a.m. well 6:30 I think, it was Creflo Dollar. Funny, he was talking about worry and how that was not of God. I recall the scripture marked in my Bible that talks about how we should not worry because God provides for the animals so of course he will provide for me. So I am continuing to pray and believe that I will get a position that is best for my family.

Ok, that is all there isn’t anymore…

Yes, it has finally hit me… I am very tired.

I am tired of not fitting my clothes, wearing the same thing over and over again, going to work sick and tired, sleep deprivation, heartburn, indigestion, puking, not sleeping on my tummy, waking up in the middle of the night, bad dreams, bathroom breaks every 2 hours, bladder infections, people staring, not being able to go far, not being able to bend over, backaches, and going to the dr. so daggum often…

Ok now that I have all that off my chest. I am thankful for God, my hubby, my baby, my family, my job, my friends, and all the blessings God has bestowed upon me!

That is all… there isn’t anymore…

It is time for me to have:

A new home in AL.

A 2009 Chevy Tahoe… I am sooo ready for this… I can’t stand it anymore!

A meal at Olive Garden… so what I am a hungry preggo.

Friends that live closer to me in my new home… yep, I am selfish I want them to come to me.

My baby… he is safe in there but I am ready to meet Jayden Xavier now.

That is all, there isn’t anymore….

I say that because I am encouraged… listening to my favorite Christian Cd (even though it is a bootleg copy that I made… he he) I can honestly say that I know God has a plan. Song #1 says “No weapon formed against me shall prosper.” I believe that… and have seen it play out which is even more awesome. Then song #2 is Bebe and Cece (all you that listen to African American gospel know I am talking about the Winans- love them!) and it is old school but “Addicted Love” is the bomb and I can sing it all the way through….

Ok so I got an e-mail from my cuz today about a cute little story… I won’t post the story but essentially this was the caption at the end and I felt encouraged enough to share it with every one of my readers:

Philppians 4:13 — I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called
Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called Success.

Is that not just awesome?

Ok now for real talk… I am 29 weeks today.. I thought this day would come much later for some reason. I go to the doc again for a sugar check on Friday. I am very antsy about what will become of me… birth, working situation, living situation, etc. I did talk to my Mom and figured out that if we continue to live where we are (hubby and I) we could live on savings and him working and I could stay at home if that is what we want to do. I was soooo against it and as time marches on I am feeling it more. I feel I need a break from the classroom. Then again I am eager to spend the summer taking care of my little one as many mommies tell me that they were eager to head back to work so that they could get a break. I am also concerned about the birthing process. Now I have 2 fibroids and although the doc said he had plenty of room, I feel sorry for Jayden having to share me with them! (Spoken like a true Mommy). I think I am going to buy my stuff from Target next week- at least the travel system anyways. My mom is buying the bassinet thing I picked out and I think my sis is buying the bouncy seat thing or something. Then of course with 2 Godmommies that are extremely excited and a future Goddaddy- Jayden will be ready and met with love! Ok so I am nervous about birth… I pray that it lasts a little while, I get an epidural (sp?) and then have the baby naturally. I don’t want a C-section because I want to walk out of the hospital. I am open to having more children as this pregnancy has not been the easiest but not so bad that I don’t want to go through it again… *sigh* and next time we hope for an Ashlynne Nechele and then this Mommy will be done!

Well thanks for listening. I am antsy… I snap at students a lot and then of course the class chorus now is “She is pregnant!” And I always add, “yeah, I am pregnant!” It is almost a joke but they know I enjoy them it is just getting difficult. My emotions are up and down and I have to be careful who I talk to and when because I can’t really be there for them like I once was… in other words it is my turn to be selfish! Very seldom do I want to hear about anyone else’s issues… I want to say my stuff… may or may not want feedback and then I want to go to sleep. I have told hubby once or twice that I just want him to listen and don’t offer an opinion… he laughed in shock but listened as I reminded him that I am pregnant and need his support!

I am stopping now before I get too caught up. If you care to add a comment, please do… until next time America…lol…

That is all….. there isn’t anymore…

I know it is not good but unfortunately it is apart of life.

Therefore, I have decided to click my heels and have the following things occur:

1. Husband makes it big and I no longer work

2. Smidgen, my lil’ sis, Miss London, Miss Tally Teacher, Mrs. T at work, and even Mrs. D.C. all move and live on my block wherever we may end up.

3. I have a 2009 black Chevy Tahoe- iced out! (yeah I said it- bling, bling)

4. My blogging friend and all the others trying to get pregnant do with no more issues and have beautiful families.

5, My parents no longer work, pay all the bills, and work with the church.

6. I have a Jayden Xavier AND an Ashlynne Nechele

7. I gain a butt- I am thinking butt injections now… ok hubby is but still he says a girl said they work… hmmm

8. Teachers’ salaries double and they are the most respected profession- even above President!

9. I have the power to snap my fingers and make things happen- yes, smidgen- like Mary Poppins!

10. I continue to hope, dream, and pray because that is what helps me get through the day (ha, ha- I rhymed!)

Stay tuned for Bless Your Heart Friday…. boy can I go off this week!

Things you have done during your lifetime:
(X) Gone on a blind date
(X) Skipped school
() Watched someone die
() Been to Canada
(X) Been to Mexico
(X) Been to Florida
() Jumped off a cliff
() Bungee jump
() Parasailed
() Been to Hawaii
(X) Been on a plane
() Flown a plane
() Been on a helicopter
(X) Been lost
(X) Gone to Washington, DC
() Swam in the ocean at night
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
() Played cops and robbers
() Recently colored with crayons
() Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid for a meal with coins only
() Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch
() Been to New York City
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t
(X) Made prank phone calls
(X) Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose & elsewhere
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) Danced in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
() Watched the sunrise with someone
(X) Blown bubbles
() Gone ice-skating
(X) Gone to the movies
() Been deep sea fishing
() Driven across the United States
() Been in a hot air balloon
() Been sky diving
() Gone snowmobiling
() Lived in more than one country
() Lay down outside at night and admired the stars
() Seen a falling star and made a wish
() Enjoyed the beauty of Old Faithful Geyser
(X) Been on a cruise
() Traveled by train
() Traveled by motorcycle
(X) Been horse back riding
() Ridden on a San Francisco CABLE CAR
(X) Been to Disney World
() Been to Disney World in a different country
(X) Truly believed in the power of prayer
() Been in a rain forest
(X) Gone snorkeling
()Seen whales in the ocean
() Been to Niagara Falls
(X) Ridden on an elephant
() Swam with dolphins
() Been to the Olympics
() Walked on the Great Wall of China
() Saw and heard a glacier crack
() Been water-skiing
() Been snow-skiing
() Been to Europe
() Swam in the Mediterranean
() Been to a Major League Baseball game
() Been to a National Football League game
() Ever been skinny-dipping
(X) Laugh so hard you cried
() Followed a map for treasure
() Driven a dune buggy
() Got a Tattoo

Ok gang, make your own bucket list and add a comment to mine so that I can go look at yours!

Yep.. only 112 days to go… according to my weekly update. Ok so here is what else it said:
Your baby’s growing steadily, having gained about 4 ounces since last week. That puts him at just over a pound. Since he’s almost a foot long (picture an ear of corn), he cuts a pretty lean figure at this point, but his body is filling out proportionally and he’ll soon start to plump up. His brain is also growing quickly now, and his taste buds are continuing to develop. His lungs are developing “branches” of the respiratory “tree” as well as cells that produce surfactant, a substance that will help his air sacs inflate once he hits the outside world. His skin is still thin and translucent, but that will start to change soon.  Supposedly this is what baby looks like inside me too:

Ok that is kind of all that is going on right now…. just feeling Jayden move a lot and trying to get rid of my sniffles.

Hope everyone has a great night! Thanks for reading and commenting!

Yes… there was an emergency…. No joke!

Ok as most of you know I have a fibroid. It is 6 cm which is bigger than I thought. I am thinking plum size. It has not really been an issue up to this point. I was at the doctor last week and she said it was not growing so we celebrated.

Well at 4:30 a.m. I woke up in a lot of discomfort. I shifted to see if I could get the fibroid to move and resettle so that I could go back to sleep. Unfortunately that did not work. So I decided I would just go to the bathroom- for some reason when you are pregnant even if you do not “have” to go, if you sit on the toilet a stream will come. So as my stream flowed… so did excruciating pain that made me think my fibroid was on fire literally… talk about some burning. So I told God that I couldn’t deal with this at the moment and needed a break because I needed some sleep. So, I went back to bed crouched over a bit only to lay down for a full 30 seconds. Then I felt a huge sensation to upchuck.. so I hurried to the bathroom still in pain! No puke… but lots of dryheaving which was pretty darn painful. So back to bed to wake up at 6 a.m. and refuse to get up b/c I don’t have to get up until 6:30. Well at 6:20 the pain was back and I repeated the same procedure… bathroom, stream, pain, double over, bed, 30 seconds, toilet, dryheaving. So I woke my Mom up and told her. She told me to call my doctor. 

When the doctor’s office called me back she demanded that I be in at 8. I told her that was near impossible being that it was already 7. So I quickly wrote up lesson plans and sent them to Mrs. T. at work and the Asst. Principal. I then got breakast ready and waited on my Mom to drive me. Of course the pain had subsided by then. But I went anyway. She finally got me in at 9:30 a.m. Dr. Voss had to work me in since Dr. Torrence was out of the office for the week! Anyways she felt my fibroid and had the heartbeat checked. Mr. Jayden was fine. She said the fibroid was not hurting him. That was a nice relief. However, once she pressed on it, the fibroid did start to hurt again. I am supposed to take Ibuprofen to ease my pain but it will get worse before it gets better. There is nothing they can really do. No surgery but they could give me steroids. I was like uh…. nah….

Anyways, so that was my scare. I am hurting intermittently now. I was able to go to work at 11 and that was necessary because grades were due and I needed to put mine in.

I am watching the balls now. I can’t believe they caught Obama doing the “bump” with a lady. It really is a fantastic occasion. With 20 degree weather in Washington D.C. though, I cannot say that I wish I was there… but it would be nice to see it all in person.

Just wanted to keep you all updated. I have started hurting again and plan to go lay down and see if the shift will help. My Ibuprofen is in the car… in my bag… ugh… it is wayyyyyy too cold to go get it too!

This is a blog that I read almost daily. Although I want to say for the record that I have met some of the girls not all and that they too like me tend to speak their minds on issues. I am a reader (that is too my faithfuls) that does NOT mean that I agree with EVERYTHING so don’t comment all upset that I mentioned this blog.

They are holding “25 days of Chickmas” where you can post and win stuff. The contest right now is to blog about their blog… I figure since I give Smidgen free advertising all the time (yes, she too does the same for me) then at least maybe I will win something. But it is fun to compete and win. No, I have not won anything and have participated in several of the contests. So feel free to check them out sometime: http://www.sevenchicks.typepad.com/ They are Christian ladies and have lots of good stuff on their site. If you visit you can comment and mention that “scrapper26″ sent ya! ha ha!

I do like the 25 days of chickmas I think it is cool that they are giving away cool stuff. I do wish that those who have not won would have the advantage over those that have, especially the ones that enter all the time. But, that is just me… maybe the teacher in me trying to be fair somewhat. Anyways, I thought about doing something like that but.. what would I give away? Plus, I don’t have the energy to blog daily more less get something in the mail… anyways.. enough of my rambling.

OK so I will post again for my own personal updates… keep blogging!